Monday, November 29, 2010

PonchoMeg's Thanksgiving Weekend of Greatness

I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving holiday (if you are in a place where you celebrate Thanksgiving that is... otherwise, I hope you just had a wonderful weekend).  My weekend was pretty stellar.

It all started on Wednesday for me actually, as I had to prepare my very own gluten-free Thanksgiving dinner to take to my mom and dad's house.  My mom bought me groceries so that I would be able to make it all, and I am so grateful for that.  So yes, Wednesday, I started cooking.  I made the GF spinach and artichoke dip and GF bread.  It was fun, and... a success!

On Thursday morning, I got up early, made half of my bread into gluten-free stuffing, stuffed my GF turkey (there is meat with gluten in it, believe it or not),  and got my turkey in the oven.  While it cooked, I did laundry, watched the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade and the dog show, did some writing, and reflected back on Thanksgivings from my past.  It was awesome!

Scene It? SquabbleFinally, once everything was cooked and ready, I hauled it out to my parents' house and got to have a nice, family dinner with my mom, dad, sister, brother-in-law, and Kiki (my parents neurotic but lovable calico cat).  We also watched home movies and played Scene-it Squabble (girls won!).  It was a great time.

Friday was fairly uneventful, but I did get to see my former roommate, A. (who I miss constantly) so that was cool.  Oh and I faxed my stuff back to the unemployment office again.  (Hopefully this time everything is clear and I can get paid.)

Saturday, we celebrated my dad's birthday early (his actual birthday is today) by taking him to see "Megamind" (WAY good movie, btw) and eating dinner at Outback Steakhouse . Why Outback?  Well, originally, we were going to go to Applebee's, but they don't have a gluten-free menu.  Outback does, and has great food all around.  Plus, my dad got a free Birthday sundae (and no singing or clapping, which, as someone who used to work in the food service industry, he finds to be embarrassing and degrading) so that was good.  After that, I got to hang out with my friend Chin and a few other friends and we watched The Goods: Live Hard, Sell Hard.  It is a WAY funny movie!  If you haven't seen it yet, check it out.

Days Gone ByeThat leads to Sunday.  Sunday was another awesome day. Will's parents took us to see the Children's Ballet Theatre production of "The Nutcracker".  And with that, the Christmas season officially started for me.  It was awesome.  Sunday night we hung out with some friends and watched "The Walking Dead," which, if you aren't familiar with it, is an amazing show on AMC.  I am so into it, but there's only one episode left in the season I think!  Ahh!! What will I do!?!?

Then this morning, I had an interview. An interview!!  Oh, I am so excited.  It's been awhile since I've had an interview, so that was amazing.  Not only that, but the place is awesome!  If I get the job, I will be teaching but without having to constantly fight for my job or for validation like I've had to do in the past as a music educator.  Wow... that would be so awesome...

Pilot [HD]Anyway, now I am home, ready to work on some writing (even if I get this job, I'll still be doing my writing).  But I also have to prepare for my second interview tomorrow. (That's right, they want me to come in for a second interview! Ahhh!!! :) haha)  Also on the agenda for tomorrow... watching myself on Detroit 1-8-7!  Yes, that's right: the episode that I was a part of is airing tomorrow at 10:00 pm (Eastern/Standard time) on ABC!  I am SOOOO excited!  If you watch Detroit 1-8-7, look for me and my car.  My car is a maroon/wine colored Saturn Ion that should be in some shots and I am wearing a goldish-brown dress coat over skinny jeans and a printed shirt.  Good luck spotting me! haha

Well, I think that's about it.  But before I go, I'll leave you with a few new websites to check out:

Here's to a good week. :)
Peace and Love,

Friday, November 19, 2010

Peace & Love & Follow Friday

Hello all.  Well, it's been a pretty interesting week.  I'm learning the ropes of being poor and realizing how many things I took for granted the few times I have had money as an adult.  This is good, because one day, when I do actually have money again, I will know how to make it stretch AND I will be more grateful for all of the things that I will get to do that I can't do now (like... going to the movies or being able to buy craft supplies or going to P.F. Chang's or being able to buy things with cash instead of pennies...)  So yeah... it's definitely a good learning experience.

So what's been happening.  Well, I have been doing a LOT of writing.  Not a lot of sleeping.  And I've been hanging out with friends, cuddling with Ava Boo Boo, and just living my crazy Bohemian life. :)

And the Westboro Baptist Church came to town.  But not in great numbers.  Apparently, there were only about 3 of them outside of East Lansing High School yesterday. (I decided not to go so as not to give them any fuel for their fire.  I really do just want peace and love.)
In any case, the students showed them that we didn't need any hate coming from them in our community by doing their own peaceful counter-protest.  Read more about it here: NBC News Article on WBC in East Lansing

Anyway, on to today.  Well, today is Friday, and as some of you might know, Friday is "follow friday" on Twitter.  So, I, like many others, having been finding new people to follow today and promoting people to follow as well.  In my "follow friday" adventures, I found a lot of interesting websites to check out.  Here's what I came across:

Located in Ohio.  Seems like a neat place.  Plus, I gotta represent for anything "Great Lakes." haha

I get excited whenever I come across people trying to promote peace.  

I'm a follower!  I can't wait to read more.  It seems like there's a lot of stuff here to help people & the world.

One Life. One Planet. Live Deeply.  
I am definitely interested in knowing more...

I will definitely be spending more time on this site too.  Check it out if you want peace.

Clothing for people who love peace and love.

I know nothing about this site yet, but I like the idea of a record company promoting peace.  So yeah... I'll have to look into it more...

Heroes working for peace.  Awesome.

He appeals to me because he believes in sharing creativity, thoughts, and ideas on the web.

If you're looking for a new book, here's an author I came across today.

Musician / Geek / Thinker / Blogger

And these next two are not new finds, but two sites I just think you should check out. :)

Google offers helpful tools to communicate with people all over the world; even if they speak a different language.

My brand new website.  All about PonchoMeg: The Modern Bohemian on the web & in life.

And I really don't know what else to write about.  So I will leave you with all that for now.  Now, if you have any great sites about peace, love, creativity, giving, writing, hippies, bohemians, etc. that you like, please share them in the comments so I can check them out too. :)

Peace and Love,

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

My very first upload to Youtube!! I am so excited. Please check it out and let me know what you think.
Peace and Love,

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Highlights of My Bohemian Weekend (Featuring Furry Friends)

This weekend had a lot of good things in it.  I saw a lot of friends, my sister and her new husband got back safely from their honeymoon, Tum won some pizzas for all the guys, and Will bought some groceries.  Mmm... real food.

In addition to all that, I also got to go to a craft show with my mom in Mason, MI.  It was a great time.  She got a lot of cool stuff and even bought me a snowman! I love him.  He's sitting on top of my entertainment center smiling down at me as I write.

My favorite part of the weekend though?  Putting out the pumpkins from Halloween.  Why?  Well, because when we busted them up and put them out back, the squirrels loved them and went crazy over them!  Check it out:


I know some people have a hard time understanding my love of squirrels and my desire to feed them (most notably, my mom) but there is just something so magical and cute about squirrels.  Maybe it's the puffy tail.  Or... maybe I like squirrels because they are like gypsies.  Hmm....

Anyway, the other thing I did this weekend was research, write, and read.  When I wasn't at the craft show or outside with the squirrels I was working.  But I think it's gonna pay off.  I got an interview with Wilhuff I can work with, lots of new ideas and outlines, and most impressively (maybe): a series of 12 lists on List My Five that give fun and helpful information on your birth month.  If you want to check them out, just click on your birth month below:


And that's about it.  Oh, except I  forgot to tell you... I got a call from the unemployment office today.  I have to call them back tomorrow.  And talk about what?  I don't know... maybe I just have to beg them to help me! In any case, please wish me luck!  This Bohemian needs some money soon!!
Peace and Love,

Friday, November 12, 2010

The Westboro Baptist Church Has Decided to Protest in East Lansing

Yes, that's right.  The Westboro Baptist Church, best known for their hate, their unwelcome attendance at military funerals, and their ridiculous need for public attention have decided to protest a high school in East Lansing, MI.  Really?

Apparently, they believe that the students at East Lansing High School are horrible people because a large number of the students e-mailed WBC and told them of their disapproval of their methods, actions, and statements, especially the protesting of military funerals.  Instead of taking these e-mails as constructive criticism and positive outreach (or as a wake-up call!), the WBC has decided that East Lansing High School students are, as one person apparently said, "sinners and brats."  What?

Here's a article from the State News that will give you a little more information on this event:
Westboro Baptist Church to Picket East Lansing High School

So what am I going to do?  Well, first of all, to all the people at WBC, I hope you know that I still love you, even if you think I'm a sinner and you don't love me.  I believe that you have a right to your beliefs, even if I disagree, and I believe that you have every right to express your beliefs... but I too question your methods, actions, and statements.  There is a better way to bring people to God for sure!

I am reminded Rev. Rick Boyd at First Christian Church here in Lansing.  One of the times that I attended services there, he told the story of Jesus and his meeting with a woman at a well.    It goes a little something like this: there's this well.  A woman is there, all alone, getting water and Jesus offers her life water (not like the brand... but like, eternal life water.  God stuff.)  He doesn't ask her to change, he doesn't ask her to be something she is not, he simply offers her all the goodness and greatness of God with no judgement, no conditions, and no hesitation.  WBC, if you are as close to God as you seem to think, you should know that the way to move people, to inspire people, and to save people is to love them as they are, without judgement and without hate.  You may offer to tell them about your points of view, but you have no right to ask them to change... or to hate them if they don't.

Now I am not really a Christian, and even I am appalled by some of the things that the WBC has said and done.  I can only imagine what it must feel like for someone who is a good, upstanding Christian to see this group go against the teachings of Jesus Christ so often and so aggressively.  To those people, I say stand strong.  Don't let this group bring down an entire culture of people who are good and true and strong in their beliefs.  Love them, learn from them, and just continue to be good Christians.

As for me... I am contemplating attending as a "counter-protestor," but only if it will all be peaceful.  As of right now, it seems like it might be, so maybe I'll be there.  If I am, I'll be covered in peace buttons and spreading love.  Maybe I'll have a sign or maybe I'll bring my ukulele and sing or something.

If you want to protest this awful behavior as much as we Lansing/East Lansing residents do but you live far away, you can still do your own protesting AND have a positive impact on society.  Donate to some great causes that the WBC would probably say were... not so great.  Some suggestions:

Donate to the Human Rights Campaign
Working for Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, and Transgender Equal Rights

Donate to Organizing for America
Developed by the Democrats to help with campaign costs.  Basically... if you like Obama, and you want to show WBC what's up (since they think that he is the Anti-Christ), donate to something that could maybe put him in office for a second term.  That'll show 'em!

Donate to one of the amazing charitable organizations on this list: Support Our Troops
From giving financial aid to families of service members who have been killed in action to showing your support with a yellow ribbon to learning how to send care packages and donations to both wounded soldiers and those still in action, everyone can find a way to help out here.

Check out the Three Faiths Exhibition at the New York Public Library, now until February 28, 2011.
Co-sponsored by the Coexist Foundation, "Three Faiths" will set, side by side for the first time, the New York Public Library's collection of Jewish, Christian, and Muslim manuscripts. Awesome!
Coexist Bumper Sticker
While you're at it, buy the Coexist Bumper Sticker.  Put it on your car or on your fridge or on your guitar case or wherever!  

And I'll let you know how it all turns out.

Peace and Love,

Uplifting Stuff (I need it!)

Uplift: to improve the spiritual, social, or intellectual condition of...

Words of Wisdom:

"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today." -James Dean

"Forget regret, or life is yours to miss.  No other road, no other way... no day but today." -Rent, Jonathan Larson

"I will not fear.  Fear is the mind killer..." -Dune, Frank Herbert

"When the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace." -Jimi Hendrix

"Those who wish to sing always have a song." -Swedish Proverb

More Uplifting Stuff:

Uplifting Connections: This place seems awesome.  Too bad I don't live around there... or even in that state.  But if I ever do go there, I want to check this place out.
I really like what the owner has to say:

Our Goal is to increase positive energy in the world - to help people feel healthy, happy, strong, and centered with more balance in their lives.
Ellie Bassick-Trovato, UC Owner

Groovy, right?

Beliefnet is THE site for spirituality, inspiration, and faith.  There's a lot of good stuff on this site.

Google search either "funny animal picture" or "funny pet picture" and enjoy what you get.  They are funny, stupid, uplifting, inspiring, and so much more!

This song is AMAZING!  It helps me feel better.  True Believer always cheers me up too (of course). Other great ones? "No one is Alone" from Into the WoodsIf I Had You (and really... anything Adam Lambert), and Get Together by The Youngbloods.

"Come on people now, smile on your brother, everybody get together, try to love one another right now..."

I made $23.00 today selling CDs, DVDs, and old games.  Money in the pocket is definitely a step in the right direction.

My Baby Boo-Boo!!  It's Ava!  She makes me happy and keeps me going!

Peace and Love,

Thursday, November 11, 2010

"Hippie" Books that Caught the Modern Bohemian's Eye

I like to do searches every once in awhile for sites, products, and other such things that relate to hippies, bohemians, and free-spirits.  This time around, I searched for hippie books and found a whole bunch that I would love to read (if only I could afford them.  Sigh... maybe someday) and that maybe you might be interested in reading too.  Here they are (in no particular order).  If you want to know more about them and/or purchase them, simply click on the picture.

I want them all! haha  Enjoy everyone.
Peace and Love,

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Living the Bohemian Life...Random Tidbits From the Past Few Days

I feel like I am such a downer... even though I am grateful for what I have and I still have hope that the future will be better, right now... I just feel... down.  My unemployment is being held up again.  Why?  I don't know.  I don't know what else I need to do to convince them that I have nothing.  But, oh well.  If I can't get unemployment, I will just have to make money somehow myself, and more than the $30-$40 a month I make with my online writing right now.  But how?
I don't know.  But here's what I would like to see happen:

*More royalties from (My average right now is $10-$30 a month...)
*Write more articles for List my Five and have them bring in at least $100 a month (this is possible, right?)
*Make more money off of my blog. (Right now, I haven't even reached the payout with my blog advertising... and the payout is only $10!  After almost 2 years, I have made $7.09 off of my blog... wow...)
*Write more articles for Hubpages, Squidoo, Bukisa, and The Examiner and somehow drive lots of traffic through so I can make some real money off of them.  (I've made $0.75 on Squidoo, plus some money for charity, a couple bucks on Bukisa, and a big $0 on Hubpages and The Examiner.)
*A part time job!  (I AM willing to work out in the "real world" too.)
*Get paid to sing, teach, act, write, perform, inform, help, craft, create, or even babysit!  I feel like I have a lot of talents that people could make use of.
*Become rich and famous and never have to worry about money again (This is probably the least likely thing on this list, but I don't want to count it out...)

We'll see how it goes...
But I have to rant a little before I continue.  What is the deal with unemployment!!??!?!?  I understand that there are people who cheat the system, but I am not one of those people.  So why is it so hard for me to get them to help me?  I just don't understand.  Am I an idiot?  Do I not know how to do something I'm supposed to be doing, and if so, couldn't they just TELL me, so that I could get some money to actually eat a decent meal?  (The most food I've eaten in two weeks was at my sister's rehearsal dinner and wedding!)  And what about a "bridge card" (food stamps)?  Why am I not getting that?  When I know people better off than me that have it?  People who don't need it!  People who have jobs, people who have people to pay for stuff for them, or students who have no cares in the world.  Why do they have this help and I don't?  I just don't understand...

Alright.  End Rant.  It won't help anything to be upset.

So let's look at the positives:

My sister got married this past weekend.  Both the ceremony and the reception were amazing and my sister looked SO beautiful! She and her man B. got married at the Bridge Street Wedding Chapel in Grand Ledge, MI and then had a great reception at Walnut Hills Country Club in East Lansing, MI.  It was magical.  Walnut Hills even made sure that I had all gluten-free food.

Speaking of gluten-free food... the restaurant that we had the rehearsal dinner at in Grand Ledge, Cugino's, did NOT have a gluten-free menu.  HOWEVER... a nice gentleman at the establishment (Chef, perhaps owner?) helped me out over the phone and in the restaurant, checking labels with me and everything, to make sure that I had a gluten-free experience.  I can't tell you how grateful I was for that.  So, if you are ever in Grand Ledge and are feeling hungry, please visit Cugino's.  The amount of attention, respect, and compassion that they showed me makes them very deserving of some extra business. (My food was really yummy too.  When I couldn't use the margarine spread or sour cream on my baked potato, we even got inventive with some cheddar cheese and real butter, and it was delish!)  So yeah.. go there.  Eat.  And enjoy!

Other positive things...

Let's make a list:
1. Over 100 fans on Facebook for PonchoMeg: The Modern Bohemian.  I will be having a contest soon to celebrate!
2. New friends!  I have made some new friends around the web and have a lot of new followers on Twitter.  Yay!
3. A donation to my blog was made by msfullroller, a blog follower of mine and a super nice person, who told me not spend the money on blog costs or charitable donations as I normally would but instead she said "Please use this for yourself."  Amazing.  To her I say: Thank you, thank you, thank you!!  Your level of compassion for those who are struggling is inspiring.
4. Fun/Interesting/Important stuff I have found online recently and/or long ago and want to share with you:

Rusty Zipper - Vintage hippie clothes abound.  I love it. Too bad I can't afford it! haha

New friend Hunter Pecunia's website: Hunter Pecunia

To Where Now - Just check it out.  This is another new friend's page.

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline - Just in case you know someone who is struggling and contemplating suicide.  (Note:  I am not one of these people.  I may be struggling, but I'm not really into "death," so... I don't think about suicide as a way out.  I thought that was important to note.)

Minecraft - Amazingly addictive simple game of building stuff with blocks.  I am obsessed! haha  I've built a giant castle, a "hippie den," an underground tunnel system under a theatre, and some sweet walkways and gardens.  I love it.  You can play for free or buy it.  I play for free right now.  So fun!! - She seems very helpful and nice.  She has some good (free) online advice.

This is not fun, but important.  I found real people's stories of hard times on this Oprah forum.  They made me cry.  Some of them hit home pretty hard too.  Check them out here: Community Forum

And... that's about all for now I think.

Peace and Love,

Friday, November 5, 2010

Nothing Like Being Kicked When You're Down

So Will came in this morning and said, "I have some bad news?"
"Oh no..." I thought, "the bathroom flooded again..."  But that was not it.
"Unless something else happened that I'm unaware of, like someone moving it or something or... I don't know..." :::WAY LONG PAUSE::: "Someone stole your cooler."

Okay.  Not the end of the world.  Sure, it was a gift from my parents.  Yeah, we use it for camping.  And it was full of cans and bottles that still had to be returned for money.  But, it's not that big of a deal.  It's an object!  A cooler!

So why did I start crying?

I think it's because it's not about the cooler.  I mean... it sucks having my cooler stolen,  but maybe whoever stole it really needed it.  It WAS dirty and full of cans, so maybe they thought we didn't want it and they just really, really needed it.  (That's what I would like to keep thinking.)

But if the crying didn't come from the fact that a material object of mine was gone, where did the tears come from?

Well, when he was done telling me what had happened, I said to Will:  "It's okay.  We can always get a new cooler," and suddenly my heart hurt, because all my financial worries flooded over me like a wave crashing against the shore, and I knew that it wasn't entirely true.  I mean yes, maybe someday I will be able to buy a new cooler, but not now.  Not soon.  Who knows when really?  So I just kind of felt like... well, like someone was kicking me when I was down!  And that is not a good feeling.  And so the tears came.

But here I am, a few hours later.  The tears are gone, and I am only a little hurt still by my loss, but I have to remember that it IS just a cooler after all though.  Even if I can't buy another one anytime soon, I have other options for hauling around food, so I just need to take advantage of those and not complain.  I mean... a cooler is a luxury anyway, right?

So instead of lamenting the loss of my big, plastic, insulated box with wheels... I am going to be grateful that they only stole my cooler.  They could have broken into my car.  They didn't.  They could have stolen Tum's bike.  They didn't.  They could have broken into the house.  They didn't.  All they did was take a cooler (that maybe they really needed.)  So I am grateful.

And as I am grateful, I want to send some positivity out in the world to give back a little.  So first of all, I have a great site to share with you: New Age Journey.  This is a great site, full of positivity and helpfulness.  Click on ABOUT to read about Greta, and allow her and her positive outlook, her great sense of self, and her dedication to influencing the future in a good way, inspire you too.  She inspired me.  While I was down about my cooler, I read this:

"So then I finally realized through my experiences that I can not change the past but only influence the future. Whatever life throws at you it’s how you handle it that counts. I am grateful for each day and every day is a new day." -Greta, New Age Journey

I think sometimes it helps just to be reminded...

So since I can't change the fact that my cooler has been stolen, I can at least change my reaction to it.  No more tears, no more fears (Fear IS the mind killer), and no more feeling sorry for myself.  I mean, how can I feel sorry for myself when there are people in this country and around the world who have never even SEEN something like a cooler, let alone had one to be stolen.  So, instead of feeling sorry for me, I decided to be grateful, and try to offer some hope to them.

So I made the rounds to all my free donation sites that I love so much ( by the way, if you want to donate as well, the banners are at the top of the blog) and I sat down to write my blog, with the hopes that I can somehow inspire you all to be grateful and go out and do some good in the world... even if you too are feeling "kicked when you're down."

Have Hope.  Be Strong.  Be Grateful.  And know that you are not alone.

Peace and Love,

Thursday, November 4, 2010

PonchoMeg: The Modern Bohemian is Getting Read Around the World!

Visitor Demographics for 
PonchoMeg: The Modern Bohemian...     

United States 78.0%
United Kingdom 9.0%
Romania 3.0%
Denmark 2.8%
Russia 2.0%
Canada 1.5%
Brazil 1.1%
Australia 1.0%
South Korea 0.5%
France 0.1%

Apparently, PonchoMeg: The Modern Bohemian
is read in all sorts of places around the world.  
This cheers me up a little, knowing that I really
can reach the world... little by little.

I will say, I am surprised at how low Canada
is on this list.  Where all my Canadians at?  
You all live right next door! haha

Just playin' Canada.
But seriously, let's see if we can spread
this Modern Bohemian love a little further.  
I'd like to see a few more countries on this list. :)
Like Germany... where's Germany!?!?!
Ich liebe dich, Deutschland!
Kommen Sie zu meinem blog! Bitte!  
What about Italy?
Visita il mio blog! Per favore. :)
(I hope I said all that right! haha)

Keep it coming world.
And I will keep sharing with you. 
And together we can spread
peace and love and understanding
and show that all people, 
from all walks of life,
from all over the world,
CAN come together as a community;
in peace.

Peace and Love,

P.S. - Here are some helpful resources
if you want to be a world traveler...
or at least feel like one. :)  
And/or for if you just want to
connect with other people around the world,
like I am apparently doing with 
my little blog here! haha  Enjoy:

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

The Downsides of a Bohemian Lifestyle

I love my life.  I love my lifestyle.  And really, I like pretty much everything exactly the way it is.  But there are downsides to the Bohemian life.

The biggest downside?  No money.  Financially, I am wrecked.  I'm in debt from college (yay for that degree I'm NOT using...), I have credit card debt, and I owe my family and friends money.  It feels crummy.  I have the dream, of course, that someday my artistic talents or my performing or my writing skills will give me the big break I need to make tons of money, and then I will pay off all my debt, buy stuff for everyone I love, travel the world, and donate time and money and resources to charities all over.  Will that happen?  The rational side of me (yes, I DO have one...) says "Don't bet on it."  It's unlikely for someone like me to have massive success.  With that being said though, the dreamer in me keeps saying "Anything is possible."  So I keep on going...

But it's hard NOT to stress about money.  Especially when you only have $1.44 in your bank account and no idea when more money will be coming your way (as is the case with me right now).  And when there is little to no food you can eat in your house (as is also the case with me right now).  And when you owe friends money and you feel like you can't see them because it is just too embarrassing (as is also the case... well, you get the picture...)

But having no money is just one downside.  There's also this whole thing of people not really respecting me and my life choices.  Now, part of me... doesn't care.  Let people think what they want.  If they don't like it, they don't like it.  I will still love them, but I don't want to change just to please them.  But this is a hard road, this road of "I don't care."  Because part of me does care.  I mean, who doesn't want their parents to be proud of them?  Who doesn't want people talking about their successes... instead of always talking about their failures?  And who doesn't want respect?  I want respect.  I want success.  And I want to make my friends and family proud of who I am and what I do.

But maybe for now that is a battle I must lose...  I don't want to change who I am, compromise my beliefs, and work some 9-5 office or factory job just to please everyone else.  I can't.  It's not me.
So instead it remains a big downside for me.

Final downside?  I feel like there's not a lot I can do to change the things that I actually DO need to change.  Every time I try... I get screwed.  Example: Tried to get food stamps.  They called me while I was on Mackinac Island and couldn't talk, and now they just can't seem to find time for me.
I was finally getting unemployment.  I worked one day on Detroit 1-8-7 and suddenly they say I may not qualify for unemployment anymore!  I have no part time OR full time work and $1.44 in my bank account!  How can I NOT qualify?  So I start to feel like the world is out to get me.  Like I am looked down upon.  And like because I don't know how to "work the system," that I will continue to get screwed.  It sucks.  I've worked since I was 14 years old and I just want help.  Is it so hard to help people?  Maybe for some people it is...

Sorry to be so down.  But if I am going to represent my life honestly, I need to talk about the bad stuff too.  Maybe I am just thinking about it a lot because I just used my last bit of money on rent, our bathroom flooded today, and I'm hungry.  But while it was on my mind, I figured I would share.  Maybe some of you out there feel like you're in the same (sinking) boat.  And maybe if you are out there, we can help each other to reach the shore. :)

Peace and Love,

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

My Homemade Halloween Costume

Take some old clothes, rip them up some more, apply red paint and smear with hands, take outside and rub in the dirt, shake out, dirty them up more with some bronzer, and then put them on.  And do wild hair and "make up."  And then you have my costume. That is pretty much exactly how it came together.  The idea was zombie, but it definitely turned into Zombie Killer.  I looked pretty badass.  I think. haha  What do you think?

 Too bad that I didn't have The Zombie Survival Guide: Complete Protection from the Living Dead (I have a friend who has it.  Reads it.  Maybe even lives
by it! haha) But from the looks of me, I didn't need it.  I was definitely channeling the "kick-butt chick" in the movies who gets battered and bruised and beat up and abused... and comes out stronger and deadlier than she started.
I liked the power of it.  Makes me want to keep working out! haha

Did anyone else make some homemade costumes or dress up at all for Halloween?  Please share if you did!

Peace and Love,
The Zombie Killer