I don't do as much writing as I should. I say this, not because I'm not bringing in enough money writing (which I'm not) but more because I feel happier when I express myself and put it out there for the world to consume through their eyes, and I haven't been doing that as much lately!
But part of the reason I don't do as much writing as I should is because I live a very busy, sometimes chaotic existence between working odd jobs, nannying, singing, acting, modeling, doing promotional work, making art and arts and crafts, public speaking, and things going wrong left and right. I do seem to get kicked when I am down about 99% of the time, and I have to work harder and longer hours at more jobs to make less money than I would at one "GOOD" or "NORMAL" job. Ugghh...
Some say I bring it on myself, and that is slightly true. I am a hippie, bohemian, free-spirit after all; I am a freelancer, an artist, a creative-type. I am not a 9-5, cubicle sitting, paper-pushing, follow someone else's orders all the time kind of person. Never have been, (pretty sure I) never will be. Not that I can't work for/with others. I can. I am just a person who needs a lot of flexibility, creative freedom, and honestly, the ability to do more than one thing. I have way too many ideas swirling around in my head to be tied down to one profession.
I am a hard worker (which seems to surprise some people who believe that all hippies are dirty and lazy) and I DO push myself to do a lot in a day. It's just that... where I am now, even what I AM doing isn't enough. It's not enough to feel satisfied, it is not enough to pay the bills... it's just not enough.
I look back at when I was a teacher and I cannot believe how different things are now. I was bringing in $1800 every two weeks at my first teaching job. Plus I had benefits, insurance, investments... My medical issues could be managed, if my car broke down, I could fix it, I never had a problem paying RENT... NOW, I am lucky to bring in $475-$575 a MONTH!! I'm not less of a hard worker, I am not less smart than I was (if anything I am wiser) and I always do quality work. But because I am a freelance creative spirit - a writer, actress, musician, model, artist, odd job Queen - I struggle. Because I am a hippie, bohemian, free-spirit below the poverty line - I struggle. Because I am a girl who grew up below the poverty line, "bettered herself" by going to college, and racked up over $30,000 in debt - I struggle. Because I am young and have EDS-hypermobility, CFS, Fibro., cysts, anxiety, bipolar, chronic UTIs, allergies, and a gluten-intolerance but "look fine" and have no insurance - I struggle.
I struggle! And when I struggle, I often end up making myself struggle more. I become my own worst enemy. I get bogged down by all the bad, and I work HARDER, not SMARTER... burning myself up from all ends. I take too much on, I extend the hours that I keep, I do way more reading and research than actual writing and I make list upon list of things to do, most of which I never even get to. I waste a lot of time and energy. But then, somehow, I BURST THROUGH!!! Like a beacon of light on the foggiest night, I will emerge victorious!!! And for that brief moment - whether it is actually writing something and getting it out there, paying a bill, getting a new job, getting booked for a movie, etc. - I feel as though the possibilities are endless; like I can do anything.
And the truth is, WE CAN do just about anything. We humans are AMAZING creatures. We just cannot be our own worst enemies. We have to live with a sense of purpose and drive and work hard to achieve our dreams. We have to believe that we can make it through anything. I mean, really... what's the other option? Give up, lay down, and die? No thanks.
I push and I fight. I do. Hence why I am writing this now. I remind myself what all this means to me; the blog, the people I've met, the people I've helped, the writing, the freedom, the creativity, the art, the rewarding hard work, the joy... and so when I am not writing as much as I should (as I have been doing...) I come here, back to the beginning, to the MAIN BLOG, my roots... and I remind myself. And I write, and the words fly from my fingers as they move across the keys and I reboot, revitalize, and am reborn yet again into my ever crazy hippie, bohemian, free-spirit world!
And so it won't matter that I don't make what I made as a teacher, or that my rent is 2 months behind, or that I don't eat every day...
Because money doesn't fuel my life, a secure job doesn't do it for me either, and I don't care if I eat everyday or get regular sleep. I am an ARTIST! A creative soul! A HIPPIE, BOHEMIAN, FREE-SPIRIT who just needs to be revitalized from time to time and reminded that THIS is what matters - the creativity, the love, the peace, the helping of others, the release, the feeling of really knowing who you are...
So hopefully this means I will be writing more again. I'm definitely ready for another rebirth. ;)
Peace and Love,
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Tuesday, June 11, 2013
My Hippie, Bohemian, Free-Spirit Life in 2013... a modern "La Boheme," "Rent," "American-poverty" (anti-) sob story about WRITING...
Friday, March 22, 2013
It's been awhile since I've posted here on the main blog! The one that started it all! haha I've just been so busy elsewhere. For example, check out what I've been doing in the world on online writing and making money online:
And just how active I've been on Twitter:
Not to mention all I've been up to on Facebook:
And that's just online. In the "real world" I've been watching (practically raising) my friends' kids, working at Qdoba as a line server, trying to make music, and finish my 2nd poetry book, my sci-fi novel, and my musical version of "Pride and Prejudice" by Jane Austen. Not to mention that I TRY to see people from time to time.
But here I am, here to give at least a little update.
So... here are some things I have been obsessed with lately...
-My nephew (as always)
-Cry Baby and Blazing Saddles
-Writing on Bubblews
-The idea of ditching cable for a Roku
-Making money to get out of this hole I'm in
-Old episodes of "The Cosby Show," "M*A*S*H" (as always), "Hercules: The Legendary Journeys," and "It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia"
-Season 8 of Weeds (Hooray for Netflix!!)
-Singing along to Adam Lambert in my car at the top of my lungs
-"Bad Boy" by The Jive Bombers
-Peace and Love (as always)
Some crazy things that have happened:
-Had our water shut off for a few days (ick)
-Furnace broke. So... we were without heat for 3 days and nights. I am very grateful for blankets. And very happy that I am a bit of a blanket hoarder.
-My brakes went out on my car WHILE I WAS DRIVING IT! All was well though... I avoided an accident and my daddy fixed it all for me. I'm one lucky gal!
-Our basement flooded. A lot. Ruined a bunch of stuff. But what can you do but move on?
I am once again raising money for The March of Dimes March for Babies.
Every little bit helps, so if you can, PLEASE donate to this amazing cause that helps BABIES!
Peace and Love,
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Bohemian/Hippie Gift Guide 2012
It's about that time of year again... the holidays are upon us, and we need gifts. So whether you are a hippie/bohemian/free-spirit or you are getting gifts for a hippie/bohemian/free-spirit, I have made this guide to help you through the holiday season. Enjoy!
TV on DVD
GIFTS FOR THE KIDS
CLOTHING AND ACCESSORIES
MICHIGAN GIFTS FROM MICHIGAN PEOPLE
GREAT PLACES TO SHOP ONLINE
National Wildlife Federation Store
The Beauty of the Bohemian Life on Createspace
The Beauty of the Bohemian Life on Createspace
|Conflict-Free Brilliant Earth Ring|
|Peace Journals from Poo Poo Paper|
|My 1st book of poetry!|
ETSY SHOPS OF HIPPIE/BOHEMIAN/FREE-SPIRIT INTEREST
Treats and Eats
My New Favorite Things
Just Give Me Peace
Pretty Little World Vintage
Natural Earth Oils
|Hot Chocolate Earrings from Treats and Eats|
HELPFUL HOLIDAY RESOURCES
Flowers to Give to a Friend
Flowers to Give to a Lover
Scents Hippies Love to Smell
Online Shopping Resources for Hippies and Bohemians
Top 5 Hippie/Bohemian Stores in Michigan
Better Business Bureau
The Top 50 Christmas Movies
Reasons to Donate to Toys for Tots
Top 5 Books for Hippies, Bohemians, and Free-Spirits
Places to Find Cheap Books
Things You Should Know About Better World Books
Great Holiday Ideas from the Modern Bohemian
50 Ways to be a Better Human Being
PonchoMeg's Guide to Hippie, Bohemian, Free-Spirited Living: A lens for the Counterculture
Living a Bohemian Lifestyle in the Age of Technology
15 Gift Ideas for Your Hippie, Bohemian, Free-Spirited Friends
More Great Ideas for the Holiday Season
More Holiday Help from the Modern Bohemian
100 Homemade Gift Ideas
Bohemian Hippie Gift Guide 2010
Bohemian Hippie Gift Guide 2011
Top 5 Homemade Christmas Candy from Nancy Hardin
Making Soap for Fun and Profit
Homemade Christmas Gifts
Ways to Wrap Presents without Wrapping Paper
Homemade Christmas Tree Decorations
Classic Christmas Songs
Christmas Pop Songs
Book Series for Tween Girls
Kids Books About Michigan
Potty Training Books for Children and their Parents
Top 5 Traits of a Modern Hippie, Bohemian, and/or Free-Spirit
Signs Your Kid is a Hippie, Bohemian, and/or Free-Spirit
Top 5 New Year's Eve Movies
Things to Know About December (as a birth month)
Appetizers for a Holiday Party
Christmas Movie Classics
Christmas Movie Classics for Kids
Christmas Movie Musicals
Modern Christmas Classic Movies by LillyP
Funny Christmas Movies
Romantic Christmas Movies
Animated Christmas Movies
Non-Christmas Christmas Movies
Christmas Movies for the Whole Family
Christmas Movies I Will Be Watching This Year
Treehugger Holiday Gift Guide 2012
HOMEMADE GIFT IDEAS
Blankets, towels, scarves, purses, socks, hats, sweaters, slippers, etc.
Soaps, scrubs, body washes, lip balm, etc.
An original song
Be CREATIVE! The possibilities are endless!
MORE GREAT GROOVY GIFT IDEAS
Pay for a friend or family member's recycling services for a year
Pipes, water pieces, vaporizers, one hitters, grinders, etc.
Tickets to a play, musical, art show, concert, festival, etc.
Bean bag chairs
Tea or coffee
Anything with peace signs on it
Here are a few awesome things I would love to have from Amazon. (WINK! haha)
Meagan's Magical Winter Wishlist
The best gifts to give are the gifts of peace and love.
PEACE AND LOVE TO YOU ALL DURING THE HOLIDAY SEASON AND ALWAYS!
I love you all so much.
Be good. Do good. And LIVE!!!
Peace and Love,